Birth control

I'm finding out I don't need actual contraceptives to not have children.  Well I knew that I didn't in my situation, but I found an alternative.  Watching other people's kids.  Now don't get me wrong I love kids.  I've always loved working in Children's Church or going as a sponsor with the teens or letting my friends' kids hang out at my house.  But I can only handle the aforementioned kids for a few hours. 

I guess I'm getting old because this use to not be my attitude.  I could stand to be around the little munchkins for days even rolling on the floor with them.  Now, not so much.  I get a headache real quick.  You would think this would just be contained to some of my friends' offspring, but in fact I feel the same way about my niece and nephew.  I love them to death, don't get me wrong, but they make me want to get a nerve pill.  I've been told by someone that just because those kids annoy me doesn't mean my own offspring will and she maybe right, but I'm not sure I wanna take that chance.

I go back and forth on having children in the future.  And by future I mean 5 or 10 years from now. I'm certainly not ready now for them and when I do have a child (because I've decided that is all I need is just one) I will want to do it with a partner and not by myself.  It's a lot of work raising a child and I can see that by being around so many parents. 

So I'll continue to hang around my parent friends so that they can keep me from jumping into that black hole called parenting before I'm fully ready.  Until then I'll just practice and perfect my discipline techniques.