am I red?

Does anyone else get embarrassed over something that normally they wouldn't be, but because of the company they are with, do?  I do all of the time.  Then I feel dumb that I got embarrassed in the first place.


It happens a lot with my mom while watching a movie.  With her it's always the sex scenes or jokes. The cursing is fine, she's been known to be a foul mouth at times, but the aforementioned always get me.  I don't know why.  She's obviously had sex... only three times though.  I suppose though if she was really offended or uncomfortable she would get up and leave the room and I don't believe she ever has.  I can think of one instance where I was really embarrassed and that was at the beginning of the Ricky Gervais movie 'The Invention of Lying'.  Where he comes to Jennifer Garner's door for a date and she isn't ready yet... Oh my goodness!  Thankfully the movie got better and less embarrassing after that moment.

I don't get as embarrassed with my sister as I use to.  The only thing that I get anxious about is when it deals with gay issues.  Now let me first say that my sister has never changed her mind or opinion of me since I came out.  She might not understand it all, which she has said to me, but she doesn't think any less of me for it.  I know that she has made leaps and bounds with this issue and she's very sensitive when it comes up, whether that be in conversation with others or in the media.  But I still have that pang of worry.  It could be my own internal issue (see earlier post) and I'm slowly getting past that, but I worry.  I know my sister is not going to ever say anything to intentionally hurt me and probably would think it through before she even approached the subject.  I still get embarrassed though.  Especially when it's full on pda on tv or in a movie.  It's not something that is prevalent in this area and I don't think she, or anyone really, is desensitized to it yet.


Since moving in to my new digs that I share with an older couple, who happens to be the pastor of my church, it has been happening more frequently.  That's not to say they are prudes.  They watch tv/movies of all sorts and it's really hard to watch a show or movie without a single curse word unless you watch the Disney and Nickelodeon channels during the day.  I definitely don't watch all my shows live... Some are on the edge and I know they wouldn't want to watch them.

I tried to warn them the other night about this.  I am a Gleek and it was Tuesday night. I had already, earlier in the day, set the dvr to record the show.  Several times I said we didn't have to watch it and that we could watch something else.  We've watched an episode before, I can't remember which one, and it was just as risque as this last episode about sex education!  I kept thinking, 'they are gonna think horrible things about me because they've only seen the racy episodes!'


Pastor left about half way through the show.....   Ugh.