I woke up at 5am the other morning... like, wide awake and after only being asleep for a few hours prior. It took another hour and a half for me to fall back asleep. The reason for the early wake up call? No idear. It happens, thankfully not often. Once I was awake I started thinking about weird things. Number 1 on that list was how I would decorate/redesign my sister's house if I moved into it. That birthed into adding a second story and possible third and how I would decorate and arrange those floors as well. The rest of my thoughts focused on my current life stresses, which are many and seem to never end.
Don't get me wrong I'm very thankful for what I have, but seriously I'm almost out of time. Everything keeps piling up an dit's getting to the point where it can't pile up any higher. I've weighed my options, but most seem just a way to get out of paying my debts and I think/feel that it's a cop-out. I'm not shucking responsibility. I made the mess and I should be held accountable for that said mess. I'm just really finding it hard to see a way out. A positive side to all this is my walk with God has strengthened. All I can keep telling myself is to pray, believe and continue looking for a job.
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